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mochacafe:

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Okay. We didn’t literally broke up.

The thing is, we never really, y’know, started an official relationship.

But whatever. I feel like posting this.

You might think that this isn’t a big deal to me. You’d think that this is a big joke.

You’re dead wrong.

We met exactly 7 years ago. We are both in third grade and all. He’s my first love. He gave me things. People teased us so much. Even though we didn’t literally talk to each other, I know the feeling is mutual. He knew the feeling is mutual. But freshman year came. And I knew this feeling should be stopped. I knew that this would be over. And boy, was I right! You know maybe if I’m writing this years ago, I’ll be sniffing here and there, wiping my nose on some tissue, crying. But now, of course I’m still concerned. He’s my first love. And when things got so worst, I thought I’ll never be okay again. I cried and cried. I hated everyone. To be exact, I am miserable. But when Junior year started, my classmates told me to move on. Of course, at the first one, I can’t. But now, for the second time, I tried. And I am proud to say that it went really good. Now I am really fine. His ex is now one of my bff’s, which is awkward and all but when we remember all of it, we just all laughed like nothing happened. We both accepted what’s happening right now. And what’s happening right now is that I know my friend is still in love with him. I know I never really knew him too well, maybe his past self, but I don’t know him now. And his present reminds me of my old self. Too ambitious, so in love. Breakable. And she hates my friend. And that, is one of the things that I should try to mend this year.

Why we broke up, you ask? It is because he led me on and found another. That douche.

So the classes will start on June 11, not 4. You know what? Maybe this is a sign. I’m really pissed at everyone yesterday but now that I’ve calmed down and talked to my friends, there is a possibility that this year would really be a blast. Fitting in isn’t really a problem at my school. Bullying isn’t over the top too. But of course, I wanted to spend the whole school year with my bff’s. This is my last year in high school, it’ll be better if I’ll make it the most memorable so far. There will be our 3 days and 2 nights retreat, field trip, our final turn over, prom and of course graduation. Next year, I’ll be graduating, I’ll go to my dream university to take up my dream college. Well, you might think that things are going well as planned. Well, I hope so. And today is a great time to start doing things good.

jutcherson:

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